Don’t mind me. I am going to start pasting some of my comments from Instagram on other people’s page or my own. I often have insights, deeper reflections and scrutiny of subjects, with my poetry community soul friends and fellow writers on the comments section. It is like a little poetry /book club.
Today, I was thinking about how I tend to feel aversion for things, activities, interests, purely anything that I do not agree with. I either Love or Hate something, though I am quite acquainted with irrelevance too. I know this aversion is ego ridden. When I feel it, is because I cannot accept that the same thing I reject, can be appropriate and suitable to others.
I understand this, on a cognitive level, but when I am conversing with others, my “I” gets in the way. This is my task for the next few weeks. Do not feel aversion. It is a sign I am ego-tied and looking from my sole life-goggles. Well, I will endeavour to work on judgement. Nonetheless, it serves a purpose, that of protection, for instance. That is to come next. Identify when judgement arising is fine and when it is an ego chain. One of the issues I had, whilst online dating, is that I tried to ignore my judgements. The first interactions had indicated certain behavioural patterns but I decided to ignore it for thinking I was boxing them in. After all, it was only an interaction, how could I label them X? Thus, I ignored red flags and as a result, got let down, got hurt, which contributed to more trust issues and feelings of inadequacy. So, judgement has its part to play in life. I only need to adjust this mental tool we have.
My purpose to post comments on here is because I see this blog as my journal. And I want to keep them for further reflection.